Ray J took to his Instagram on Monday to share a lengthy message, in which he wrote that he is “suicidal” after an incident at GloRilla’s party on Sunday.
In an Instagram Story, the 43-year-old R&B singer detailed an incident that occurred, alleging that someone paid him off, but did not share any additional details as to who or what the alleged payment was for.
“The s**t that. Is happening is mind blowing – it’s making me suicidal and uncomfortable with the perception of reality! – THEY PAID ME TO SHUT UP AND I DID! – I FEEL BAD AND I HATE MYSELF FOR IT! I DONT WANT ANYMORE OF YOUR DIRTY MONEY!!” Ray J wrote in part.
Alongside the garrulous caption, the singer reposted a photo of himself on the carpet at the BET Awards, where he said everything was going great — until it wasn’t. Ray J added that the problems didn’t stop there, either.
“Then it all went bad! – First at #BET and then later on too! – I’m really at a breakin point! – To provide for my family and have generational wealth was always the plan. – but money is evil and people are bad and I can’t take it anymore!” he wrote.
Ray J continued, “These chain of reactions are stemming from being locked in a false reality / confused about this whole life! – The s**t that happened tonight to me at the awards today was hurtful – I’m working backstage and then I go take a break in the back and BET wouldn’t let me back in for some reason – I don’t know who they didn’t want me to see – it was weird.”
According to TMZ, after the event ended, the TV personality also got into an altercation at GloRilla’s after-party with a Zeus Network exec. At one point, Ray J allegedly threw a punch but did not hit anyone.
Continuing on social media, Ray J further alarmed fans by sharing a message directly to his sister, Brandy, and once again expressing dark and potentially suicidal ideations.
“[…] Right after I die .. I promise you I will be feee [sic] of it all and the world can move on with what is real for me,” he wrote. “I’m sorry to myself and I’m sister – sorry Bran, I will make it right, I won’t let them get away with it!”
He added, “I TOLD THE PEOPLE CLOSE TO ME -THAT! FELT LIKE SOMETHING IS ABOUT TO HAppen F**K. IT I SAID IT.”
ET reached out to Ray J’s reps for comment.
If you or someone you know is considering suicide, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), text “STRENGTH” to the Crisis Text Line at 741-741 or go to suicidepreventionlifeline.org.
This story was updated on July 1 at 3:49 p.m. PST.
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